now you know it's bad when you get two posts from me in the same day! I am lucky to do two posts in a month. But her logic has me going insane!

we are BROKE.. I mean broke down to not paying bills.. but she wants to go buy stupid spray paint for my brothers art class that he ONLY needed tonight. When I heard her say she wanted wings from the local buffalo wing place I made a comment to say I was going, well then her tune changed to bring back a pizza. I am so sick of them eating out all the fucking time and I get stuck with a can of green beans or pasta with no butter. why did I do this? why?!

Don't even get me started on their FUCKING animals, 4 cats, and 5 dogs, the dogs piss and shit everywhere, while the cats go in two boxs but it never gets cleaned out. I know that since Im not working I do the cleaning, but I FUCKING REFUSE to clean the cat shit boxes or do their laundry!! REFUSE!! I will mop up dog piss and shit but not those fucking shit boxes!

So we having a garage sale tomorrow to get money, well she wants to put it up to make more crafts.. (crafts that I am FUCKING making.. not her) I want my own money.. I want to split the profit three ways, one for me, one for her, and one for the crafts.. but what the fuck do I know.. Im just a 40 year old who has three degrees, and she is a 25 year old who has never even been to college! Im so sick of everything! From the DOGS to the SMELL to the BULLSHIT!

it hasn't even been a month yet...god I have to find a job and get me and my dogs out of here!! please if you are there hear me! I need you this time, I need you more than Ive ever needed you!

you are still there right?

cherin~
losing my mind along with my hope!


EDIT: so the twenty bucks in the craft jar is now 3.25 cause she wanted to eat out.. my patience is to the point of breaking!!!!! and what do I get to eat? you asked? nothing again..