I understand the expression 'pulling my hair out' means. Because she has me doing it by the fists full. I am SO TIRED of hearing how 'depressed' she is ALL the fucking time! I have been dianosignsed with bi-polar since I was in the third grade.

now I have spent a week making wreaths to sale and she wants to give them to her mom so her mom can give them to her friends. so this leaves me with less than an hundred bucks in my account while they eat out for lunch and supper each day.

I am seriously thinking this was a mistake. She is driving me nutts, I so sick of her complaining and bitching about this and that.. and I have to keep quit because this is her house, what do I do?

I don't remember at 25 knowing everything like she does. I am almost 40 and I guess Im stupid and don't know half of what she does and I have three degrees!!! go figure.

why do I do this? I could end it all and just let my dogs live with them and I wouldn't have to live tormented like this. I think I will go to bed.. Im so tried of living a lie, no where i live helps.. this life was not meant for me. I don't think if I end it then I won't have to do this anymore.

cheirn~
pills in one hand and a gun in another