sometimes I wish I had some kind of terminal illness, maybe it would be easier to accept this life, if I were losing it.

Maybe that is wrong of me, I just can't find any other way to put words to it. I wish I could absorb someone's illness so they could live with their love ones. So they can be happy, and live a life they want. While I drift through one I don't.

only a few more months and then maybe something good will come from this horrid life.

I believe in reincarnation, but do we get to choose where we go? no I don't think so. sometimes my other lives seep through and I see something. I feel you in the room when I know you aren't. I miss you so much and days seem to get longer and longer without you.

this path that has been chosen for me is a bumpy one, will it help me in the next?

will that crossroad come in time?

iloveyou

cherin~
rambling in the darkness of my own mind.